Henri Nouwen #1

For my hour sanctuary prayer I went to FBC Marshall. The gym where the contemporary service takes place was locked, so I did my prayer in an empty sunday school room. This prayer time was very interesting for me. It brought new meaning to things that I already know. When i pray alone, it can be kind of awkward because I don't know where to start or what to say. I learned how terrible I am at praying and at staying focused. At the same time, it finally clicked that if we go before God with something residing on our mind, that thing can distract us from being focused in on prayer. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing....it may be both. Knowing that I was distracted, I was forced to bring my thoughts before God, and things were sorted out. In the middle of being distracted and being distracted by the fact that i was distracted, I turned to the scripture to draw near to God, and he spoke to me about being self-controlled for the sake of my prayers. Through all of this, I felt as though I had a deeper desire of wanting to hear from God during the Sermon. Somehow, my focus was in the right place. Overall it helped me feel God and hear from him.